what the ....

talking about karma, i believe truly in that... yesterday's paper had some pretty extensive coverage on the problem of human trafficking, prostitution and paedophiles in asia. i'm sorry but i just cannot understand the rationale behind all that. how can a woman trade her body (and not forgetting dignity) for money?? maybe i'm lucky to be born into a relatively well-to-do family but if one has hands and legs and has no disability, why should one subject herself to such treatment?

and men... hello?? the woman that you're f***ing is someone's wife, mother, daughter and/or sister. imagine another guy f***ing the women in your family! of course, i understand that theory of 'demand & supply' but please!! not forgetting those of you who prey on children? please crash and burn in hell! they are innocent and you've literally screwed up their lives!

why can't there be more male prostitutes instead of female ones? oh... no!! coz men don't even need to be paid to be used sexually!! the whole issue disturbs me... why can't you men just surf/watch porn and masturbate? you just need to release your sperm somehow right? i'm sure you losers can achieve orgasms by masturbating so stop degrading the women of the world.

a friend once told me that prostitution helps to reduce the incidence rate of rape and molestation because it helps the losers to get what they want. and i think that's total crap and bullshit! respect the 'pussy'!! that was your entrance to this world (for most of you, at least)!!

birthday

its my birthday today... and i'm another year older! yikes!! horrible, horrible, horrible!! its depressing... i have nothing to do for the whole day & not to forget, no company... think i should just go over to my parents' place and spend some time with them.

on another note, i met an elderly australian couple y'day at the train station and they were trying to find their way to the changi prison museum... so i volunteered to take them there. nothing very interesting there... but then again, nothing really very interesting in this country anyway. since its a very small and not interesting place, we didn't spend that much time there. i then took them to the nearest mall for some shopping. being very nice people (yes, australians are generally nice people), they insisted on buying me lunch so we went to a food court in the mall and i ordered some local food and drinks for them. good food is cheap and easily available in singapore if you compare it with australia. an average meal here is half the price of what you would pay there. nevertheless, i still love that country... afterall, i had some really good times when i was studying there.

warped

i have a new hobby... reading other people's blog. strangely, though i've been using the internet in my daily life for the past ten years, i've never previously cared to read about another person's life or views about life. then suddenly, i've developed this new interest - and i'm amazed at the writing ability of many (very colorful language) but i really wonder what's going on in the minds of our youth today. seems pretty warped... the more i read, the more i wonder about the future of this country...

what is it about hate-mail? why hate another person for his/her thoughts or views? at the end of the day, we should (by right) have the freedom of speech in the cyberspace... especially since freedom of speech is a very rare thing in our country. everyone is entitled to their own opinions - don't subscribe to this? just move on... go write about your own opinions or read those you agree with. why waste your energy hating someone you don't even know personally? don't get me wrong - there are people i hate (i'm no angel) but i hate people i know because - i know them? duh! i think online, everyone has some form of persona, it may not even be the real 'them'!

pissed off!

what a week this has been! started off with me spending monday morning beside a dead elderly woman, followed by the 'largest charity suing the largest news company' saga... if you're still clueless about what's that about, you must be from another planet. i believe in charity and that one good deed deserves another and i also believe in karma (or retribution, whichever way you want to call it). heck, the week isn't even over! what's next?

charity organisations rely on the public for money (though i have no doubts that the money collected through donations are always invested for better returns) and i think its obscene to pay someone S$25k to run a charity... not to mention those 10 - 12 months bonus this bl***y idiot gets per year, first class travel on flights and what the f***, taps with golden trims? you gotta be kidding!

i've been donating to this organisation every month since i started working... and i donate more than the average person on the street. i also understand that not many people will be willing to work for free but still... it doesn't justify that kinda salary! looking at the general economic situation over at this part of the world... things are still grim, unemployment rates are still high and how many companies you know are paying good bonuses in this kinda situation? most people will be lucky if they get anything beyond their thirteenth month bonus.

no matter what those people on top are saying or how positive their outlook is, most people that i've met are still worried sick about their job security. i'm not talking about those skilled workers who have little education here... my peers are all graduates, some from local uni and many from overseas ones. we've spent such a huge part of our lives (to date, at least) and not to mention heaps of $$$, pursuing a tertiary education, hoping that it will ensure us a 'not-too-bleak' future. yet the jobs are going to these so-called 'foreign talents'... what kinda country is this?? @#$%

u-turn

just as i think i've made up my mind to make my career move, my boss gets to know about my plans to resign and decides to make me a counter offer. so now, i'm back in my dilemma, once again confused about which way i should go. the money if i take the new job is very tempting but i'll have to forsake my precious 'me' time in exchange. to stay in my current job ensures that i'll have quality time for myself (and my new pup!) but there's no guarantee that i'll make the money that i want since i don't have the discipline.

strangely enough, this morning i scheduled to see a client and when i reached her place, i realised that her mum-in-law, an elderly woman whom my client has been taking care of for the past nineteen years, just passed away. i spent the morning with my client, waiting for the ambulance, the police and then the doctor to come and certify her dead. comforting her and providing her with any assistance that she may need. there is a certain magic in the work that i do now, even though i may have only had a glimpse of it. yet deep within me, i really want to experience this magic. i wonder... is this incident a sign for me to stay on?

decisions decisions

i've finally decided what i'm going to do in my career life. since i'm ill disciplined, i figured that the only way i can succeed is to go with a tried and tested method. to be somewhere, where there are proper systems and procedures in place already. rigid i know and terribly inflexible... especially when it comes to my schedule from now on. but i'm willing to trade off some freedom for some form of success in the next two years. there are so many things that i want to achieve before i turn thirty and i am hoping that this change will help me realise my dreams! wish me luck!