secret love

Have you ever fell for someone knowing that there is just no future between the two of you? I have... more than once in fact... it is actually funny because every time it happens, I am always secretly hoping that some miracle will happen.

My girl friends and I agree that sometimes, gals can be so stupid. There is a few of us, who always fall for guys who are either attached or getting married soon. Yet, knowing that we will never take the place of the other person, we are so willing to be the third party... so willing to be there for the person when his significant other is not around.

Maybe you think that it is my fault and I really shouldn't be the third party of any relationship. But it takes two hands to clap. I was never the one who initiated it and I did not know of the significant other until I was involved with the person. So am I really at fault? I would not claim that it's entirely not my fault but it is not entirely my fault too.

It is probably hard for you to imagine the kind of hurt I feel when I hear him say, 'I love the person who is wearing the other ring too much for us to have any future'. I literally hear my heart breaking but what can I do? Just be contented that I am the one he holds in his arm for now...