u-turn

just as i think i've made up my mind to make my career move, my boss gets to know about my plans to resign and decides to make me a counter offer. so now, i'm back in my dilemma, once again confused about which way i should go. the money if i take the new job is very tempting but i'll have to forsake my precious 'me' time in exchange. to stay in my current job ensures that i'll have quality time for myself (and my new pup!) but there's no guarantee that i'll make the money that i want since i don't have the discipline.

strangely enough, this morning i scheduled to see a client and when i reached her place, i realised that her mum-in-law, an elderly woman whom my client has been taking care of for the past nineteen years, just passed away. i spent the morning with my client, waiting for the ambulance, the police and then the doctor to come and certify her dead. comforting her and providing her with any assistance that she may need. there is a certain magic in the work that i do now, even though i may have only had a glimpse of it. yet deep within me, i really want to experience this magic. i wonder... is this incident a sign for me to stay on?