crossroads

i've come, almost, to the end of the road... and right now, it's my turn to be at a cross junction. my 'good luck' has been short-lived and its almost time for me to say 'goodbye'. i can't seem to achieve what i set out to do and i really dunno the reason why.

all my life, i think i've been stuck in a rut - my 'comfort' zone, many will say and all the 'successful' people whom i've met seem to become successful only because of some adversity. must i really be in that predicament before i can achieve something great?

what is my motivation in life really? i ask myself that question, a dozen times a day, but never seem to find an answer. what is it that i really want? is it possible that someone else has the answer, rather than me?

uncertainty...

its the start of a new month and i'm a little closer to being 'boot' out of the business. its frustrating to be in this position and even someone like me, who's normally confident, can feel shaky about my future here. i really dun wanna be somewhere else but what can i really do to ensure that i stick around? is the ball really in my court, waiting for my next move? *sigh*...